Monday – December 2nd – 2013
I am 61 winters. I have had my website for over 15 years now. It has been quite a while since I written anything here or anywhere for that matter. I have been taking time to figure out what I want to do from now on… and how I want to share my life… and of course contribute to society.
When I recall most of what I have shared up until now , I am satisfied with what I ahve shared and how I have shared it. I include my focus, my goals and I have shared according to my conditioning throughout my life… based on the injustices and the social issues which I have lived. I realize that many times that have written from “a strong emotional” place and have not always made clear that I wish to help others – all peoples – to feel supported and worthy of healthy consideration.
I can honestly say that I have lived many sides of life… from being born to a “Native Canadian mixed blood” family and growing up – in an impoverished and socially troubled family in the slums of Winnipeg’s notorious CORE AREA to running away and “living” the good the bad and the ugly of many parts of this world. I see my life experiences and my history as diverse. My heart and my mind did not go in balance and in harmony… although I dreamed and wished and sought – freedom from many familial, society and environmentally imposed negatives. I lived my troubles and though I didn’t really want to cause my self more heart – I often did!
I am a Native North American Indigenous man… I am of mixed blood. I am Metis. (My first use of this name… I use this name for identification purposes of my ancestry and to honor my Mother and Father) I have Lakota Sioux blood, Ojibwa and Cree and French European blood. I am dark skinned and am proud of my blood. I have not always known true pride and love for my self and for my people AND healthy well balanced feelings and thought toward other human beings. This is part of my life being troubled and part of my intent on sharing here.
I identify strongest through my Lakota Sioux blood – as a follower of the traditional ways of the sacred ceremonies of my tribe.
I grew up looking like an “Indian” and suffered for it in many ways… I have gone though many experiences which have helped to define me as “an Indian” and I have evolved into knowing and feeling self-acceptance as a human being and truly loving my brown skin. Shame and pain addressed and my focus is to assist others in a healthy, well and balanced way to do the same for themselves.