HE CALLED HIMSELF – “The People Whisperer!”

FIRST – I need to say clear as I can – That I feel sad, fearful, and angry after waiting so long to tell of this colonialiistic situation. Yet, I am finding some relief in finally telling you an ugly truth that I have known for many years.

In memory of my Brother Robert Rattling Chase. He was with me when I first met the person I am speaking of here. And Robert was one of the people I asked him to train.

What I am sharing here –  is about someone I used to say –  was a powerful inspiration to me in my initial step into accepting and enduring therapy and healing.  Healing from my disturbed up-bringing and my own choices of living a dysfunctional life.

The person I am talking of is a professional – educated people helper – a consultant to actors and wealthy people. He is a man who started his own field of psychology for rich people. He is an educated “psycho-logical psychotherapy leader”.

I have known this – outright – for many years and I didn’t say anything publicly. I didn’t partly because I was so tired of the stress of  the label of “trouble-maker.”  At this stage in my life I got it from fighting systemic racism and confronting those “well-connected” professional educated helpers who  “colonizers” who BS us by saying they have education system proof of thier ability – even “honor”.  MOST use this way to “abnormally-use  our ppeople. They use so may of us by continuing to perpetuate a big lie that they are helping us and giving of themselves to our vulnerable and most troubled – needy people.

The dirtiest of them all is the kind who claim to know very little andcome to learn with us… taking part in traditions and ceremony. Contributing to materials badly that we have a difficult time to get for ourselves because of extreme poverty. Especially as they come to reservations where their are many needy. These kinds of people will usually – most often – latch onto a “entreprneuria-money focused” member of the community.

I need you to understand how fucked up HOW this whole way of “helping” is… THE FIRST WAVE OF COLONIZERS CAME TO TAKE EVERYTHING FROM US – TO MAKE US OBEY THEM AND WHEN WE DIDN’T – THEY BROKE EVERYTHING WE NEEDED TO LIVE STRONG AND HEALTHY – INCLUDING OUR FAMILY UNITS. We still live in this generational destruction.

So the next wave came to “fix” all they broke and to “help” us deal with dysfunctions of our broken understanding of our original Spirit Connection and our disturbed distorted psycho-social, relational, and emotional/mental/ physical and sexuality… Anyhow, they blamed us for our troubles with violence, suicide, poverty, homelessness and broken families.

For hundreds of years now, the main stream society see us a “sub-culture” and see us as lost – barren of our spirit way – as they say without “faith” and baseless people. Now, The following group are mainly Christians who want us to adopt their way of RELIGION.  So we can begin to heal with their version of faith. The second wave – The second group came with their “Religion” to Christianize us – to convert us. They came after the original colonizers destroyed and damaged everything we had to live free. They took away our base for food – almost wiping all the buffalo form this earth!. The lodging. Locking us into prisons – taking away our sense and feeling of freedom. Taking away our self-determination and living us vulnerable – unable to provide ourselves with protection. Our emotional, mental and sexual harmony was deeply disturbed. We have deep ingrained self-loathing and amongst ourselves and our environment and our family and our tribe.

I am saying this because there is a disturbed pattern carried on in the helping system – the created a huge ugly dis-ease and now offer a solution – BASED ON THEIR ORIGINAL COLONIZERS MENTALITY AND HIERARCHY – SUPERIOR SYSTEMIC CULTURE AND SOCIETAL NORMS. They come to us as helpers. These are usually white people with “education” “position in education system and society”

I am somewhat stuck in my feelings and thinking in my telling about what I saw from THIS PARTICULAR MAN – a man who first inspired me in my first stint in treatment at Onsite Experiential Psycho-therapy. I feel angry that I – ME – I did not want to admit – face up to the negative and hurtful experiences that I had with this person almost every time I had to INTERACT deal with him.

What I saw coming for this person triggered my fear and mistrust with “the Wasicu”. The “eater of everything” “the Glutton” “the human swine-pig”!

Wasicu is a Lakota/Dakota word – an expression label for the Caucasian man or whiteman who came to “fucken cheat, murder and on make their fortune and on and on and blah blah… yawn.

PLEASE NOTE THIS IS A WRITING IN PROGRESS – I WILL CONTINUE SOON.